I know the pieces fit because I watched them tumble down.

So I’ve come to realize over time i really need to get out and find some friends around here.
Small trouble with that is, there aren’t any people around here to be “friends” with…. A bunch of cows, but no people.
Hopefully if all goes according to plan within the next couple months I’ll be moving in with my dad and getting away from mother.
Dad lives in the city, near people, next to a rather attractive female around my age… Sounds great. Actually get food more than 3 times a week. Get an edumacationionion and be freeeeee.
I’ll be back in my home state, too. Be with the side of my family I prefer, possibly arrange to hang out with some friends. Seems really weird not being around them for a long period of time.
Dad’s house also has AC…. So my precious little baby girl(as seen here; http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/72/l_993f53dc05ca4ef1b03c4572552f7c8b.jpg ) won’t get all hot with her big fluffy coat of fur. :]

Well… Not much longer… I hope.

I believe I can see the future because I repeat the same routine.

Why is it some people are so easy to read, so simple to understand, and you wouldn’t expect them to be. Then you have people that you would think are pretty simple to be complicated?

What causes interest in a person? Is it based on something in their persona, or rather what you have in common with somebody and the distinct difference which ensue commonly amount being different? When you catch interest in somebody do you always know why, sometimes yes, sometimes no. But you just know that there’s something interesting. But when you find interest in a thing, shape formed in a tree, an animal doing something funny, that’s caused because you’re uncertain of how it was made or what it’s doing outside of normal behavior.
Why is interest struck, exactly? Curiosity of something that you’re not familiar with at first, or maybe it takes a while. Both, perhaps.

So what I’ve figured is, you learn why you have interest in something way after you actually learn what it is you’re looking for, but you shouldn’t let go of what you learned, so that’s means you shouldn’t let go of the past… sorta…
If we let go, we forget, we forget we don’t learn, making the journey a waste.
Snow is white because it’s forgot what color it’s supposed to be. Think about it. Don’t forget who you are, or what you’ve learned.

What is the point of all this? eh?

This broken heart was stronger than the words I wish you never meant.

Where are you?

I need you.

Do you know what’s worth fighting for when it’s not worth dying for?

So what exactly is the point of war? Is it just a human instinct to lash out and defend your territory? If we were brought world peace, would it actually last? Or would humans eventually get tired of it and start small riots, then wars, again?
Why is it people disagree with each other soooo damn much in this world? Are some people mad because they can’t find reasons to be happy, because happiness isn’t life, shit happens? Well if you’re happy about everything, then it won’t matter either way, right?

So what’s up with shit, yo?

He sowed his eyes shut, because he is afraid to see.

Mmmm, politics.

Is free enterprise really such a good thing compared to Government controlled ways? Well, it really all matters on who it leading both.

Having the Government control everything can be a very good, great thing, if Jesus is the leader and not some jackass that’s a control freak. A lot of people say that’s the worst thing, damn Chinese yeahyeah. Well in free enterprise you have multiple people doing lots of bad things all the time, constantly ripping off people and screwing up all over the place. So when somebody is actually trying to do something good for the community, it’s hard to tell if they’re scamming you for money, or actually being good about. You don’t know until you find out.
Where as when you got the Government controlling everything, you have one person…. controlling everything about your life, how you eat, how much you pay for gas, food, home, insurance. Hard to trust the government because of people’s views on how things went, and you got all these bad ‘examples’ of people that have been leaders.

So my belief is, Government controlled everything would be the best, if the leader is Jesus and everything is fair.

Help me, I broke apart my insides. Help me, I got no soul to sell.

Soooo….

Let’s say everyone has a “soulmate”, how are we to know when exactly we find them? It’s not like we were given any tips on “well you get a tingle feeling in your nose and your left arm gets shakey” or anything like that, it’s like we’re all leaving it up to chance on trying to guess which person will be the best.Sure, most people go through multiple relationships and don’t find the “right” one until they’re in their 60′s.

So who exactly is leading the Calvary for love? God(if you believe in it), fate, destiny, shear luck, chance?

What if you think you’ve found the right person, but they’re too old, or too young, about to die from some disease , is it the experience of love, and knowing that you had that something special that can only be had with that one person and nobody else can share that exact feeling? That nobody else will be able to bring that feeling back like they gave to you?  (stupid enter key goes down twice.)

If you think you’ve found the right person and the age difference is minimal or exceptional, does that really mean anything, or is it the maturity of the mind/soul what counts?
I’ve seen plenty of people go and get married to somebody with 5-30 years age difference and they’re still good and happy many years later with each other, nothing at all is wrong. So why do people same age I’ve seen get together and screw things up not once, or twice, but multiple times with the same person. Doesn’t that go with the saying;”Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.”?

At what time should we be looking for somebody to love, to cherish, to hold on to throughout anything that happens? Why do people even look for love? Is it a secondary defense emotion that keeps us safe? Does the mind itself require another to help learn and be creative?

Why am I asking so many questions, you might wonder. Why is it some people find ‘love’ or a companion within a sort time period and others spend their lives looking for somebody? Are some of just blind in the search while others can see perfectly clear? Am I just being hazed about what’s out there, while some look into the distance and see as perfect as a clear sunny day what’s out there?
Do some of us need to experience the failed relationships to learn a valuable lesson in life, and once we get it we suddenly realize what we’re looking at and understand “Oh well that makes sense, duhhh. Of course!”?

Why I am taunted so much by these questions?

Life’s about film stars and less about mothers.

What is with all this stupidity in the system these days, eh?

Just talking to a friend about random stuff, and started thinking some more(oh noes).

Mostly started with; “Well, if Jesus died for the sins of the people to a Jewish god, doesn’t that mean that the jews and christians are worshipping the same god and the only difference is Jews didn’t think he was the messiah?”.

Seems to be a lot of true religion is just something a lot of people hide behind while the real believers are trying to fix what the others are screwing up, eh?

Then it got to “why are we sending all these oddles of money to Africa when their leaders will just take it all away/overcharge for stuff, and we got all these starving kids and adults in America trying to get jobs but they just can’t?”.

So really? We give these big CEOs that don’t need money, money, and not expect them to spend it on stupid stuff?

That’s like giving a dog a bone and getting mad when she/he tried to eat it.(duhhhhh)

It complexes me why the human race seems to be backpeddling through evolution like a brick on a tricycle rolling downhill.